I AM

I came across this picture tonight as I was scrolling through InstaGram. It reminded me how important it is to speak kindly and think kindly of ourselves, and furthermore do that for others. I am guilty of labeling people, I am sure subconsciously I do it a lot, even sometimes...maybe even to day consciously I did it. I feel bad, really bad. Because I remember being labeled once, and I have to preface that when it happened the other party was not intending to hurt me. The following excerpt is from my previous blog, at I time that I was working really hard to get the gastric bypass...

 

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

No. Anything but that word.

I went to see my GP for my monthly Medical Diet Check-in. One of the last things we talked about was my worsening Diabetes. I told her I was surprised that it was all the sudden going down hill so quickly. Her response was this:
Well, You're Fat.
Duh, really? The whole phrase hit me like a Mac Truck. It hurt. Especially because she knows my situation, she knows I am doing everything in my power to fight this disease called obesity. That's what it is you know, a chronic illness, that may eventually take my life.
I am not FAT.
I am smart.
I am sensitive.
I am shy.
I am spiritual.
I suffer from obesity. You don't tell a cancer patient they are cancer. You don't tell a person with a learning disability they are dumb. What we look like or what conditions we have does not in any way define what we ARE.
She knew she said something WRONG, because the tears just flowed. She apologized. She FELT bad. Next time she WILL think twice.
I am still really emotional. I hope the tears will go away soon. 

So here I am:

I AM smart.

I AM sensitive

I AM shy

I AM sprirtual

I AM strong

I AM human

I AM imperfect

I AM a daughter of GOD 

I AM a Mother, Wife, Sister, Daughter and Aunt

Sure I have lost a lot of weight, but I AM still the same girl, that I was before:) ~E